Homestudy

The home study is on Thursday. Some people might be wondering about what exactly is entailed in the home study, well I only know what I have been told and what I have learned until Thursday comes. The social worker will come into our home and look around first. She is looking to make sure the house is safe and is a good environment for a child. She will spend about 3 hours here talking to Jeremy and I about a number of things that have to do with our childhoods, marriage, and how we want to raise our child. We have three and half pages of different questions that she will discuss with us, in addition to the 55 questions that Jeremy and I have already answered separately.

This process is nerve racking. I feel like we are under a close review and anything we say will be analyzed and permanent. Jeremy and I are very clear on how we want to raise our child and how feel about each other but this is still a very big thing to take part in. Everyone else can just have a child, take him or her home with no input from anyone else. The "objective Emily" knows that there is a very good reason for all of the background checks, physicals, and question, but......the "emotional Emily" that wants more than anything to have a child can't believe that there are this many steps and evaluation when everyone else just has a child. We are finding our way to balance of these feelings, not always easy but it is being done.

After Thursday I will post how it goes and if it is as stressful as I am preparing myself for. Until then deep breaths and happy thoughts is what will get us to Thursday.