Patience

So it is officially clear that I am not the most patient person, however I have promised myself that I will not contact our social work until the end of September. That is two months for me to just try and chill out a little bit. I just want to know about every birth mother that is looking at our profile, I know that is probably not the best thing for us but I am just so curious. I do know that two people have called about our online profile, of course we haven't heard anything else so they probably didn't pick us. It is so frustrating to think that we are just waiting for someone to pick us. How do you "sell" yourself to someone who is picking a family to raise their biological child. I know we will get picked but it is just when and by whom.

Nesting is something that everyone talks about when a woman is pregnant but the strangest thing is that I am feeling it. I have started to do stuff in the nursery, I feel the need to have things in order. The crib and changing table are up and now all the nursery is really missing for furniture is the glider. I have a perfect image of me sitting in that chair rocking our child the first night that they are home. It is an essential piece for me, something I need and the nursery must have. Organization has officially begun, I have started to clean out closets, the pantry and more. I completely understand that I could be in this state of waiting, organizing, and waiting could go on for quite a while, but that is okay. I know it will happen when it is supposed to, just kind of hard to have no idea of when it is all going to come together.

I am focusing on controlling what I can and being patient!